Ako si Alisa

MASAKIT

Noong nanliligaw pa lang sya, todo offer sayo na papaloadan ka na lang nya kasi malapit lang daw sa bahay nila yung paload-an.

Ngayong kayo na, hindi ka daw nya mapapaload-an kasi nasa bahay lang daw sya at wala daw paload-an sa kanila.

Ano ba talaga, koya?

Oras

“Sobra naman kasi *insert name here*, oras lang yan.”

“ORAS LANG YAN.”

Para sa isang girlfriend na walang ginagawa sa buhay kundi tumambay sa bahay, malaking bagay ang oras at atensyon na manggagaling sa boyfriend nya. Buhay nya na yun, pre. Charaught.

Pero seryoso, kapag ang kasintahan mo hindi mo nabigyan ng sapat na panahon at atensyon, darating ang panahon na masasaktan sya ng sobra at maaring maghanap sya ng oras mula sa ibang tao. Hindi nya kasalanan, kundi kasalanan mo. Pinaghintay mo sya eh, tanga ka ba? Maaring katanggap-tanggap yung dahilan mo kung bakit ka nawawalan ng oras sa kanya, pero hindi sapat yun para hindi mo sya mabigyan ng kung anuman ang nararapat na para sa kanya. Tao lang din sya, napapagod maghintay, umintindi at masaktan.

Kung magkalayo kayo, why not make an effort to make her feel like she’s the only girl in the world? hahahaha korni ko, k. So ayun, minsan kasi ang mga babae kahit sabihin nila na ayaw nila ng surprises kasi nasusurprise sila, kalandian lang yon! Babae yan eh, syempre gusto nyan maramdaman na mahalaga sila, lalong lalo na sa mga taong pinahahalagahan rin nila ng sobra. Lambingin mo, bisitahin mo sa bahay, make a letter for her, send her flowers, or kahit gawan mo ng video, for sure matutuwa na yan. Kahit nga compliment mapapakilig mo na yan eh.

So ayun, dami kong sinabi nangungulila lang naman ako sa boyfriend ko, huhuhu /laslas

The way na inuuna mo yung ibang tao kesa sakin,

The way na iniichapwera mo ‘ko,

OPM

Bakit ang gagaling ng mga Filipino singers/songwriters? Why? Hindi ko din alam. Hahaha. Pero sobrang hanga lang talaga ako sa kanila. I’m saying this not only because Filipino ako or what, it’s just that their works are very commendable as well. The lyrics are so meaningful and relatable.

So ayun nga, sa ngayon, dalawang kanta ang pinakagusto ko.. 

“Hear Me” By Kathryn Donato — Denny/HYSTG (original song)

Sinteya - Traffic Lights 

I adore OPM so much, and I hope more people would appreciate it.

Personal blog

Since my elementary days, hilig ko na talaga magsulat. When I say magsulat, it includes stories, daily diary entries and whatsoever. Kung ano yung nasa isip ko, sinusulat ko. Minsan ko pa ngang pinangarap maging writer and have my own book published. Pero dahil sa katamaran ko, I failed. Hahaha.

Oo, tamad talaga ako. When it comes to ideas, madami ako nyan. Kasi minsan kahit nakaupo lang ako, maya-maya tahimik na ko.. and by that time ibig sabihin may debate ng nangyayari sa utak ko. Ang dami kong tanong tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay, ang dami kong alam, hahahaha. Sa una lang naman ako magaling, alamoyun. Tulad nito, tagal ko na may tumblr pero di ako nagbblog kasi tinatamad ako magtype. Kapag may naiiisip ako, sasabihin ko sa sarili ko, “hmm, ibblog ko to mamaya”, then pag naiisip ko na tatayo pa ko, kukunin ko pa laptop ko tapos magttype pa ko, ayyy wag na lang pala, next time na lang! HAHA.

Anyway highway, sana mapanindigan ko tong personal blog na to. Nahihiya rin kasi ako sa mga tao na nakakabasa ng posts ko, ewan ko ba. Sana magkaron ako ng maraming friends, introvert kasi ako e :( So ayuuuuun!

So please help me God <3

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don’t like conflict. Because you’re so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

- This reflects me. Accurate quiz :) Try it here!

Sayang

Parang dati lang, hinahatid nya pa ko sa bahay namin. Di sya pumapayag na uuwi ako mag-isa, kaya kahit nakauwi na sya pupuntahan nya parin ako para lang makasigurado na ligtas akong makakauwi sa bahay.

Parang kelan lang lagi pa syang nag-iiwan ng mga cute love notes sa reviewer ko, o kaya naman sa bag ko. Minsan pa nga habang nagrereview ako, susulatan nya ng malaking “I LOVE YOU” yung libro ko, at matatawa na lang ako imbis na mainis.

Parang sa huling ilang buwan lang, nagpapaligsahan pa kami sa pagkain. Nag-aaway pa nga minsan sa kahuli-huling piraso na natitira sa plato namin. Nagkukurutan, nagsasabunutan, nagmumurahan, nagsisigawan, nagsasakitan, pero ganun lang talaga kami maglambing sa isa’t-isa.

Ang daming natutuwa saming dalawa, at ang daming nagsasabi na bagay kami. Pero kahit ganun, sadya ata talagang may mga bagay na hindi namin mapagkakasunduan. Mga pagkakaiba ng isa’t-isa ang nagiging dahilan ng madalas na alitan. Opinyon nya na iba sa opinyon ko, mga taste nya na hindi tugma sa taste ko, ibang-iba kami e.

At ngayon nga, dahil sa hindi pagkakaintindihan, ninais at minabuti nya na lang na lumayo. Ako? Eto naghihintay. May galit at sakit sa puso ko pero hindi ako lumalayo katulad ng ginawa nya. Maaaring mali ako, maaaring mali sya, pero kahit sino pa ang may kamalian sa aming dalawa, ang masasabi ko lang ay..

sayang.

To the one I love.

Heyy, we haven’t talk for almost a day, just so you know. Hmm, I know I was the one who asked for this coz I thought it’d be the best thing to do as of know, since we weren’t able to understand each other anymore. We’ve been fighting since the start of summer vacation, and I see no point in continuing whatever we are doing. It just seems to be so pointless to me, like there’s something wrong that we are aware of but we do not know how to fix it.. or maybe we just don’t wanna fix it.

Your claims about the situation are clear to me. You are saying that your efforts are unappreciated and that I am just the one who’s making a fuss out of everything. Yeah, maybe I was the one to always start the fight. But lemme remind you that I wouldn’t start anything unless I have enough reasons to do so. Don’t think that I was wasting time explaining my point to you for nothing.

I’ve been badly hurt by your words, actions, and everything. You know me.. I don’t ask people for things unless I needed it. And what did I asked begged from you? Oh, yes of course, TIME. I was begging time from my boyfriend. How nice, eh? I wasn’t aware that girlfriends should ask time from their boyfriends.. I thought it’d be given voluntarily. I guess I was wrong on that one..

But thank you for teaching me a lot.. I don’t know when are you gonna talk to me again, or if you will still talk to me? I don’t know.. Everything’s really uncertain.

I’m tired of arguing with you. If you want time for yourself, take as much as you want. I guess I’ll just do whatever I think is right and good for me.

I love you. Farewell.